i haven’t cried like this in so long.. I haven’t really cried at all.. Why is it that I let out to my brother about what i feel in my position seeing alla this shit I’m going through and put out a fucking smile to show them that there’s happiness somewhere to go to. Helping THEM out with their problems giving advice to THEM yet I’m the baby in the family and they haven’t noticed a thing.. Even when i told him what i felt he seems to turn it around and say some other shit about him, im not a selfish person. I will let you start talking about your problems even if i was in the middle of my own. But the thing is I’m not fucking closed minded! I understand a lot for my age. Not to sounds like a douche but you don’t have to say what we are going through cos obviously my eyes and ears witness that! It makes me feel sooo disappointed that my older brother or sister can’t even help me but it’s okay cos they’re facing their own problems but yet i spare my time to help them. But still you’re the one who said we have to help each other out to stay strong. WHERE THE FUCK IS MY HELP?! how can i try to be any stronger than i am now with out you guys understanding of my point of view..